Monday, April 25, 2005

BOA 4-5 of Class '05 (Congrats!!)

Graduation DAY

I'm no longer confused but don't tell anybody.I'm about to break the rules but don't tell anybody.I got something better than school but don't tell anybody.My momma would kill me but don't tell anybody.she wants me to get a good ass job just like everybody. She ain't walked in my shoes I'm just not everybody.

***it is from a Kanye West album

Wednesday, April 20, 2005


you will never know a guy really! unless there's a good communication. ( if you have the courage, or if you really have that motivation). Fuck, how can I, u know, start, have the freakin courage......???

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

to all the men out there

coin operated boy sitting on the shelf he is just a toy but i turn him on and he comes to life automatic joy that is why i want a coin operated boy

made of plastic and elastic he is rugged and long-lasting who could ever ever ask for more love without complications galore many shapes and weights to choose from i will never leave my bedroom i will never cry at night again wrap my arms around him and pretend....

coin operated boy all the other real ones that i destroy cannot hold a candle to my new boy and i'll never let him go and i'll never be alone not with my coin operated boy......

this bridge was written to make you feel smittener with my sad picture of girl getting bitterer can you extract me from my plastic fantasy i didnt think so but im still convinceable will you persist even after i bet you a billion dollars that i'll never love you will you persist even after i kiss you goodbye for the last time will you keep on trying to prove it? i'm dying to lose it...i want it i want you i want a coin operated boy.

and if i had a star to wish onfor my life i cant imagine any flesh and blood could be his match i can even take him in the bath

coin operated boy he may not be real experienced with girls but i know he feels like a boy should feel isn't that the point that is why i want a coin operated boywith his pretty coin operated voice saying that he loves me that he's thinking of me straight and to the point that is why i want a coin operated boy.

Tuesday, January 25, 2005


I had not thought her cry could get any worse. But I've been wrong the screams intensified and it wrenched my heart and terrified me to the depths of my soul. To hear the undiluted agony in her voice, the inhuman suffering to which her body was being subjected disturb me. This weak body and sensitive spirit could do nothing. But how could I kill her, how could I stomach to see her blood in my hands? Anger, oppression, resentment - is that enough or is it just the most rational thing to say? Or certainly this hate that divided me between vivid deformity and righteousness. It was the slime of the pit I have to blame. If my conscience was present at that moment, I am the one who supposed to be dead right now.

Friday, January 14, 2005

Questions: (level 1)

How could you possibly improve in the environmemt where procrastination is the middle name? Actually, we can if we choose not to belong, if we choose to be an outcast. Some people, like me, can't help to think about being different from the usual. I hate to say, "I'm with stupids" or rather I'm too ashamed to say that. How can I if I can't even quantify my capabilities, though I want to improve! So when the people around me discovered what I am feeling and thinking how can I explain to them what kind of persons are they, if I cannot even justify myself?